Friday, May 31, 2013

Funga Fufu

I felt my body fight against the wind and beads of sweat dropped down from my head and unto the track pavement. My arms moving up and down, and my feet stomping the ground. My eyes were fixed on the bright white banner and red font that said: finish line. I quickly shot a glance at my opponents behind me, three who still haven’t completed the second lap and as usual he was on my tail. I felt my limbs accelerate as more adrenaline were pumped into my legs and arms. More oxygen was being inhaled than ever before. Just a few more strides I thought as the white banner started to become more visible. Only one more stride, as my left foot stomped on the pavement a sharp pain traveled up my shin. “AGH!” I screamed, my vision became blurry and my legs gave way. I felt my body land on the track concrete and my hand slammed right onto the finish line. The crowd’s cheer became silent and the only thing I could hear was my name. “YOH!” a bunch of people screeched.

“Doctor will he be alright?”
“With plenty of rest and supplements he should be fine.”
“Doctor, what happened?”
I slowly opened my eyes to find two figures hovering over me. One was dressed in a lab coat and the other was wearing red track pants with stars printed at the waist and a white t-shirt. “Yoh!” the guy called out running towards me, he started to grip the bed’s fence. I moved my gaze from him to the wires that seemed like they were etched onto my body. “Since he is awake, I shall explain what happened” the man in the lab coat said. My eyes were fixed on him as my heart was starting to beat faster. What did happen? I can’t remember. All I could remember was falling to the ground and not finishing the race. My eyes widened and I lurched forward only to feel a sharp pain growing within my knee. I clutched it while beads of tears began to form. “Yoh!” the guy called out looking me in the eye. I averted my eyes with humiliation and wiped away the tears. “Mr.Yoh, you tore the femoral nerve. This nerve allows you to move your leg and feel sensation, however since you tore it, the great sensation of burning running up along your leg and knee is quite painful. Isn’t it?” the doctor said looking at me. I clutched my knee. “What does this mean?” the guy in track pants glared at him. Tears started flowing from my eyes, I know what this means. “I won’t be able to...” I murmured. “Run anymore” he finished my sentence looking firmly at me.

I slumped back down to the bed and faced the other way, having my back towards them. I bit my lip so hard that blood began to form inside my mouth. “Yoh, it will be alright” the boy in the star track pants said as he placed his hand on my shoulder. “Leave me alone” I replied as the tears started to become abundant. My pillow was almost soaked. “Yoh!” he shouted. I sprang up from my bed to face him, I glared at him even though the tears in my eyes obstructed me from seeing him as normal. “LEAVE ME ALONE, HAO!” I screamed as my breath became more heavy. Hao backed away and made his way to the door as well as the doctor, leaving me alone in the room. I began sobbing furiously and started to punch everything around me. I could feel the capillaries in my hands rupture as they were smashing the metal bed gates. “Why? why? why? why?” I screamed sobbing into my hands. “Hey, didn’t you hear what the doctor said? You should be fine if you get some rest” a voice called out. I frantically began searching for the source of the voice. “Right here!” the same voice said, I focused all my direction to the corner where a curtain started opening from the center, revealing a female with an arm and leg brace. “Who are you?” I questioned staring at her braces that wrapped around her arm and legs. “My name is Leah” she said smiling. I looked away still having my grip on my knee.
“Does it hurt?” I raised my eyebrow. I released my grip and nodded. “Did that hurt?” I responded still having my eyes on her braces. She slowly moved both hands on one arm and one leg. She nodded as well and smiled. “Yoh, I know it must be painful right now, but you learn to live with it” she said tightening the strap on her leg brace. I watched how slow she was doing it. I started to try and get off my bed to help her. “Stay in bed please, I don’t need help”
“But you’re struggling, let me help you!” I insisted until one of my feet landed on the floor. “No you mustn't” she looked at me with tears in her eyes. “How will I be able to get better? I can’t always rely on people to help me” she whimpered slowly adjusting the straps.

“Yoh, I know what you’re feeling. It’s not easy to not being able to do what you love anymore” she continued focusing her eyes on the braces wrapping around her limbs. “Trust me, I know. I used to be a swimmer, I strained the nerves in my arms and legs. I was lucky enough that I didn’t strain it all the way to my spinal chord” she smiled weakly at me. Here I am crying about this stupid tear when Leah has it worse. “How are you able to smile when you can’t swim anymore?” I questioned like my words were daggers since her smile faded. “There’s no use feeling depressed all the time just because I can’t do a couple of things. After all I’m still alive! Even though they say I have a 90% of not being able to swim, I still have a 5%!” she exclaimed wiping her tears away. My heart started to go back to it’s original beat and a curve began to grow among my lips. “Hey Yoh, no one can tell you what to do besides yourself. Even if you can’t control things around you, you can control things if it is yourself. When they say you won’t be able to run, they are just challenging you!” she said as she got up from her bed and started walking towards me. I smiled and put the other foot down gently, sparks of pain began to shoot up. I shut my eyes hard and began whimpering. I felt gentle hands wrap around one of my hand and the pain started to dissipate slowly.

“Let’s work hard to overcome this trial! I know we can both do it, we’re strong enough to adapt!” I said smiling at her. She nodded and returned the smile. “Hey, Yoh. I’m sorry for being insensitive, I took a break from track so I can help you recover from thi-”
“Hao!” I said as I shot him a smile. “I should be sorry, thank you! I will need your help!” Hao smiled “this won’t be easy you know? Hao’s therapeutic walk will be extremely difficult!”
“I’m ready!”
“If you don’t mind, um Hao, can I take it as well?” Leah spoke out blushing. Hao winked “of course madame!” We all exchanged looks and began laughing. Looks like I was just being over emotional, anything is possible to get over with, if you believe.  

Tuesday, May 28, 2013




Monday, May 27, 2013

Monday, May 20, 2013

Apples & Slaps

Past Week's OOTD
Striped Out
Navy Blue n Red/White Zip Up - Brother's
Black n' White Crop Top - Stitches $10
Black Maxi Skirt - H&M  $16
Black Purse - Steve Madden's $45
Black Slip- On Sandals - Mom's

Dark Green Jacket - Winners $80
Black n' White Striped Tank - H&M $12
Black Leggings - Suzy's $20
Black Chunky Studded Boots - XXI $26

Replica of Striped Out
Navy Blue n Red/White Zip Up - Brother's
Black n' White Striped Tank - H&M $12
Black Maxi Skirt - H&M  $16
Black Purse - Steve Madden's $45
Black Slip- On Sandals - Mom's

Juggler'n Style
Sleeveless ND Shirt - PE Uniform Shirt
Blue High Waisted Jeggings - Mom's
Black Purse - Steve Madden's $45
Black Slip- On Sandals - Mom's


God, you are truly amazing. Your love is bigger than any pain, burdens, suffering, confusing, doubt ANYTHING! Lord you are the light in my darkness, You are my saviour when I'm in trouble, Your amazing being makes us falls onto our knees because You are the Lord of all. You are my strength when I cannot do anything, You are my motivation. For the past couple weeks my eyes were covered in dirt, my heart was surround by chains and my mind was taking control. I was only doing things that seemed right in my head, I was ignoring this uneasy feeling in my heart, I was ignoring my conscience. I thought I couldn't escape this never ending cycle of pain until yesterday, where You my Lord, wiped the dirt off my eyes and broke the chains surrounding my heart. You embraced me with your love and grace, it was just so magical and amazing. I thank you Lord, for you are always there, Lord, you are always with me.


It's been such a long time since I've blogged and I told myself I was going to blog everyday, or at least every second day. However it was grad weekend and YE(youth encounter) and I had absolutely no time, but I did take videos so... VLOGS! It's been such a tiring but amazing weekend, I truly felt the Lord's presence during YE! I went to a deeper bond with the Lord and it was amazing. Not to mention I became closer with my friends at school during grad week! Words cannot describe my emotions right, they are just too damn amazing. I guess that's it, for now, until my vlogs!

Thursday, May 9, 2013


Grade 9 ^
Middle of grade 9
Middle of grade 10
Grade 11
Boy, have I changed????

Rumba Zumba

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Pusher Love

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Close, I cannot sleep with out them closed. 

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
I don't, my mother does. She actually has a bag full of them underneath the sink. 

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Tucked out because sometimes it'll be too hot or something.

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
I like to use them but I never do!

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
I don't like using coupons, so no. Even though my dad bought me the Entertainment book

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
Swarm of bees because at least I can hose them down. With a bear it'll probably think we're engaged in a water fight.

8:Do you have freckles?
Nope but I wish I had a little. Freckles are hella cute.

9:Do you always smile for pictures?
Most of the time.

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
When people are having the worst days and they expect you to be nice to them. Sorry princess, let me get you a royal throne, like a toilet so you can crap out all your worries.

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

12:Have you ever peed in the woods?

13:What about pooped in the woods?

14:Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
I make my own music in my head so... 

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
No I chew my nails

16:How many people have you slept with this week?
My sheep and my fluffy bear. Yes, I count them as people. 

17:What size is your bed?
Twin bed... single bed... I miss my queen size bed.

18:What is your Song of the week?
Pusher Love Girl - Justin Timberlake. This 20/20 Experience album <3

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Yes, in the words of Scott Disick "People who say real men don't wear pink obviously don't know any real men"

20:Do you still watch cartoons?
I do! Spongebob, Fairy Odd Parents, Mickey Mouse Club of House, Recess. All them good ol' classics. I also watch anime hehe 8) 

21:Whats your least favorite movie?
I don't know

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
In my stomach

23:What do you drink with dinner?
Usually water, if its heavy Ginger Ale.

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
RANCH or Sweet and Sour... yum.

25:What is your favorite food?
Tacos. I really love tacos and Japanese.

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Any Disney movie, any Hayao Miyazki movie, any anime movie. So I guess cartoons. 

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
My boyfriend

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
No, I would kill myself if I ever did that. 

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
My boyfriend celebrating our 9 months I think?

31:Can you change the oil on a car?
Nope, leave that to the professionals. 

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

33:Ever ran out of gas?

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
Turkey breast & Ham and Philadelphia Cheese & Blueberry Jam 

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Blueberry Muffin and Eggs

36:What is your usual bedtime?

37:Are you lazy?
Sadly yes.

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
It depends. In kindergarten I was Pocahontas, in grade 6 I think I was Samara, in grade 9 I was a rag doll, in grade 10 I was a Japanese person studying for exams LOL, in grade 11 I was a gypsy and in grade 12 I was Wanda from Fairy Odd Parents heh.

39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Oink Oink, I'm a pig.

40:How many languages can you speak?
I can speak English fluently. I know a little bit of French, Tagalog and a bit of Chinese :3

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?

43:Are you stubborn?

44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I like David Letterman better.

45:Ever watch soap operas?

46:Are you afraid of heights?

47:Do you sing in the car?
Sure as a joke.

48:Do you sing in the shower?

49:Do you dance in the car?
LOL, yeah.

50:Ever used a gun?
In Counter-Strike 

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Artona in October for grad photos.

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
No, they're great.

53:Is Christmas stressful?
Buying the gifts for sure and cooking other than that nope!

54:Ever eat a pierogi?
Yeah, cheese n potatoes? yum...

55:Favorite type of fruit pie?

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
I always wanted to be a doctor, but now I'm pursuing to be a Nurse.

57:Do you believe in ghosts?

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
I think

59:Take a vitamin daily?
I stopped taking Centrum, I should again though. I've been getting sick lately.

60:Wear slippers?
I try to, my Yoshi slippers and Hello Kitty miss my feet I bet.

61:Wear a bath robe?
Yes, going in and out of the shower.

62:What do you wear to bed?
Oversized T :D

63:First concert?

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Definitely Target.

65:Nike or Adidas?

66:Cheetos Or Fritos?

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

69:Ever take dance lessons?

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Working on computers 

71:Can you curl your tongue?

72:Ever won a spelling bee?
Nope, I personally suck at spellngi 

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
I can't remember. Usually my tears are filled with sorrows.

74:Own any record albums?

75:Own a record player?

76:Regularly burn incense?
No I wish though, it smells lovely

77:Ever been in love?
If this isn't love then I don't know what this is

78:Who would you like to see in concert?

79:What was the last concert you saw?
Hedley :(

80:Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot tea

81:Tea or coffee?

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Sugar cookies.

83:Can you swim well?
Not the best swimmer

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

85:Are you patient?
Not really... haha 

86:DJ or band, at a wedding?
Band for the ceremonial thing and they can stay for a bit during the reception and then the DJ comes out to play

87:Ever won a contest?
Yeah in my elementary, I won scariest costume hehe.

88:Ever have plastic surgery?

89:Which are better black or green olives?
Hate olives.

90:Can you knit or crochet?
I can knit I just need to be reminded how to start, crochet? I wanna learn that too

91:Best room for a fireplace?
Living Room

92:Do you want to get married?
Of course

93:If married, how long have you been married?

94:Who was your HS crush?
I had lots but my heart remains to one guy now.

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
I used to, now its just a bit.

96:Do you have kids?
I want them

97:Do you want kids?
Of course

98:Whats your favorite color?

99:Do you miss anyone right now?
Of course, when does someone not miss someone?


There lived a girl in a tiny house on the mountains. She lived alone of course, but that didn't bother her since she pretty much grew up alone. Which meant that she cooked for herself, cleaned for herself, did the chores around the house and believe it or not she worked for herself. There are times where she gets pretty lonely and she just stops what she's doing and sulks on her bed. It cannot be help for she is alone. After a few minutes of her sulking she usually gets up and continues her work, if not she most likely ends up at the kitchen table eating her favourite dessert ever: blueberry cheesecake. She didn't buy this dessert, no, but she made it. It was the last thing her grandmother ever taught her, how to make blueberry cheesecake. After eating her blueberry cheesecake she definitely goes back to whatever she was doing prior to sulking and hums a joyful tune, a tune that her grandmother always sang when the girl would always be sad. Then after that she prepares for bed and peacefully goes to bed, trying to remember all her good memories.
As the girl grew older she decided to pack her things and move out into the city, where her cousin invited her to stay with her. Of course the girl accepted and moved straight to be with her cousin, for she didn't even know herself she had another family member. Her cousin was a great young lady, she was a doctor and decided the moment she met her cousin to take care of her. All was good until her cousin died in a car accident, the very same way her grandmother had died. Again the girl was alone, not in a tiny house but a really big mansion. The girl was halfway through medical school but continued studying for the sake of her cousin. No matter how hard life knocked her down she kept standing back up or no matter how far she sunk she kept trying to swim up to reach surface. When she finished medical school and received her Ph.D in Medicine she immediately got hired, because of her outstanding grades. She worked as a surgeon very hard trying to save patients. When she couldn't save the patients, the patients' family members would ridicule her or talk bad about her right in front of her face. Of course this hurt her and she would always run into the break room taking out a slice of blueberry cheesecake. She felt better but the wound in her heart was almost unbearable to withstand.
She thought to herself...
I've been hurt in so many ways, as soon as I think life would get better it just backfires on me. Even when I had horrible things happen to me I continue to smile, but now... but now it's too much.
/She quit being a surgeon and moved back to the mountains, when she arrived she saw her tiny house, but to her surprise smoke was coming out. No, it wasn't on fire, someone happened to be inside cooking! She carefully approached the window to find a very attractive guy. She carefully brought her hands to both cheeks and blushed. The attractive guy inside glimpsed at the window to find a gorgeous young lady. Their eyes met and in an instant they knew they were made for each other.

I won't continue the story because this is the first time experiencing with this type of story. I don't know, I was angry and I needed to blow some steam.

I feel weak, Lord, help me.

Monday, May 6, 2013


Since I had nothing better to do...

Sunday, May 5, 2013


Boy was this funny.

De La Sou

haven't done this in a while, so...

I really think my smile is weird...
I'm satisfied with my make up tho :)

Sweetest Thing

The two days have been busy. Friday I was at the camp out test trial at the library. I joined the outdoor club because I thought: "hey, let's try something new". I learned how to set up a tent, a sleeping pad, and take down a tent. My friends and I cooked our own meals, A LOT of sodium but hey, lots of food that are instant and in a can have sodium. It was quite satisfying having noodles & vienna sausages. Maybe it was because I had Mcdonald's before. It was really fun since we played hide n' seek in the dark around the whole school, I managed to be one of the winners who couldn't be found(hell ya!). We ended up sleeping late & waking up early. Bad move haha!
The next day I went out with my friends. We had some froyo, pizza and watched Perks of Being a Wallflower. I got to say the book was 100 times better than the film. The film was so... surreal. It's weird seeing a 13 year old boy go through all of that. They should have just let the book, be the book! I came home really late last night, I wanted to blog yesterday but my bed was calling me.
Today nothing out of the ordinary. Went to church, had some Japanese food & more Froyo. Now I'm having bubble tea & pizza. #fatlife? Can I hashtag on blogs??
Me & The Boyfriend :)

It's hard to get him to smile :P
Me, Jon, Boyfriend & Austin
Can't go wrong with some Froyo! Menchies < Qoola

Strawberry Mango BBT
Father and Mother looking so classy in the sun
Sandal Slip On Heels & Ankle Heel Boots

Foreign Colours
Dark Green Jacket - Winners $80
Faded Denim Button-Up - Salvation Army $6
Black n White Stripped Crop Top - Stitches $10
Blue High-Waisted Jeggings - Mom's
Black Slip-On Sandals - Mom's

Casually Floral
White Plain Tee - H&M $12
Floral Skirt - Zara $15
Black Keds - Ked's Official Store $40